This Christmas morning I did not wake up to an excited smile, Santa did not bring toys, no pictures were taken, and I did not open gifts. This morning it was just me and Jesus, and a handful of sausage balls. And this Christmas, in all of my pain and grief over the loss of Noah, I have seen the true foundation of the Christmas season: a tiny baby boy filled with the Spirit of God, two parents who are filled with joy at the arrival of their firstborn, but also feel a looming cloud of sadness at the prophecy that their son must be sacrificed for mankind. What grief and sadness they must have felt, even more than I do today, knowing one day their child would certainly be taken from them.
So this Christmas has been stripped down from the commercial, happy, joy-filled Christmas I'm accustomed to, and I'm left with only Jesus, His excited yet confused and scared parents, and a promise of salvation and healing. And to be quite honest - that's all I need to keep moving forward and to live 100%. I am not living for anyone else but Jesus Christ, because He died for me. And somewhere in another dimension of time and space, wherever heaven is, my little boy is smiling because I am slowly starting to get it. This Christmas I am thanking God for the gift of eternal life through His Son, the light of the world, the baby in the manger, the boy that was "about His Father's business," the young man teaching His elders, the God-man that took my sin and shame on a cross, forever offering forgiveness and peace to my broken and hurting heart. Jesus is all we need - see that with me today, and all days.
God bless you, and I hope you have a Jesus-filled Christmas. Live 100% for Him!
"And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved. “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.” (John 3:14-21 NKJV)
These posts are written by Noah's parents Jessica & John David Crowe. The default author is Jess, and those written by John David will be noted.